Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Day 6 9.30.09 & Wellness Bridge appt

Today I had my Wellness Bridge appointment.  She weighed me in at 214.  On Thursday, in the Dr's office, I was 221.  Being sick has sure helped my cause.  I also had my measurements done.  We'll track those too to see my progress.

 I did lose 7 lbs the 1st week of Weight Watchers.  I went into this cold turkey, so I expected to have a big drop.  Dr G  wanted me to lose 10 lbs by Nov 3rd.  No problem!

I didn't eat until I got home this afternoon.  I feel SO terrible. 

Meal #1
4oz Amy's lean beef burger grilled
1 sl. fat free swiss cheese
1 T ketchup
med banana

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Day 5 - 9.29.09

Still sick.  Seems to be getting worse.  Went back to sleep after the kids got on the bus.  This really stinks!

Meal #1

1 whole wheat sandwich round
1/2 c. chicken salad (shredded chicken breast, lite miracle whip, cranberry/pecan salad topping, salt, pepper, paprika)
Romaine lettuce
Black Grapes
1 lt. string cheese

Due to bad planning on my part, Meal #2 was a plain hamburger & a diet Coke from McDonald's.  I left the house starving to head to my Dr appt.  I feel SO awful.  They gave me a new antibiotic - Levaquin.

Meal #3  - my wonderful husband made me some scrambled eggs (tomato, spinach, mushrooms, onions) and hash browns.  Yummy!  I'm finding that I am liking repeating these meals.  

Tomorrow is my Wellness Bridge appt.  After I go, I'll decide if I want to stick with it.  I'm going to get a shower and lie down.  I'm feeling fevered again.  G'night.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Day 4 - 9.28.09

Woke up with a sore throat.  I am already on Day 4 of Zithromax.  I called the Dr's office and he's out of town for 2 weeks.  Great!  There is a refill on my Zithromax, and I don't know if I should refill it or not.

Good news - I stuck to my guns and made it through last night.  Battle won.  Long way to go in the war.

Dave took me to lunch today.  We had to go out and find him some shoes.  We went to Outback - ugh!

I did better than I normally would:

Meal #1 (slept thru breakfast)

about 1/3 small appetizer plate of cheese fries (scream!)
Salad (ranch on side - dipped fork)
3 oz sirloin steak- medium
small baked potato (dipped into sour cream)

The greatest achievement was not eating until I was stuffed.  I actually could've eaten more and didn't - yay!

I made a decision today.  I am not going to weigh out every ounce, teaspoon, etc of what I eat.  Right now, I don't want to make this harder than it has to be.  I am going to make wise choices and not beat myself up when I don't.  Cop out?  Maybe - I can always change it later.

Wednesday, I'll have my measurements done at my consultation.  I'm not looking forward to those.  I updated the weight ticker today.  Down a bit.  I always lose a lot the 1st week. 

Meal #2

I had my taco salad again, listed below.  After the soccer game, Dave & the kids got KFC.  I picked up more salad mix - yay!  I forgot to take a picture ;) 

I'm planning to walk tomorrow and possibly go over to join the gym (if I feel better - this cough is really terrible).  May need to give that a few days. 


In the interest of being open and honest...  tonight, I leave you with 1 more post. 

It's taking everything in me to not go out and raid that fridge.  I have trouble distinguishing "hungry" from "boredom."  I am going to get through this.  I knew when I started to feel better, this would happen. 


Sunday, September 27, 2009

Day 3 - Sun. Sept 27th

Good morning!
I just had my breakfast. Slept well and I'm feeling a bit better so far. :) That's a relief.

I am going to start including pictures and sometimes recipes for what I am making. Hopefully, someone else can benefit from my story some day.

Breakfast 10:00am:

2 Eggland's Best eggs
tomato, onion, spinach, mushrooms
1 t. olive oil

1 whole wheat sandwich round
Butter spray

Snack 2:00pm:

1/3 c. Bran Buds cereal (13 g. fiber!)
1 Weight Watchers Cherry Cheesecake yogurt
1 palm full frozen berries (YUM!)

Lunch 4:30 pm

1 Gardenburger "Californiaburger"
1 sl. "veggie" cheese
1 whole wheat sandwich round
drizzle ketchup

Romaine salad mix, sprinkle almonds, sprinkle craisins
1 cup mandarin oranges
2 t. raspberry vinaigrette

Snack (7pm):
1 Wasa sesame crisp bread
1 t. blackberry preserves
1 lt. string cheese

Dinner (8pm):

Stuffed Eggplant from here: Recipe from
(I added recipe suggestions in the comment section.  I am from a Lebanese family, and to me, this was very bland)
Green beans
(I apologize for the awful picture!)

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Sept 26th meals

Not feeling well today - did the best I could. We did make it out to the grocery store & I used about 1/2 of my basil plant and made a big batch of pesto.


Whole wheat sandwich round
2 oz. deli chicken breast
1 sl. veggie "American" cheese


2c. romaine mix
1/4 c. lean taco beef
1 T. shredded cheese
tomato, jalapeno, black olives
2 T. salsa
2 T. corn
1 T. RF Sour Cream


Sugar Free popsicle

I've lost 2 pounds. I'm sure it's from being sick. ugh!

Saturday Morning

Slept well :) yay! I woke up in the middle of the night with my glasses on, then to my cell phone ringing. My  Wellness Bridge coach called me back to set up a meeting. It's going to be more expensive than before for the weekly consultations and I have to add to my materials - $10 food journal, $40 workbook, and then the $48 per mo. Thankfully, once you join, you never have to pay that initial $75 again.

Avery is coughing and I need breakfast - more later! :) xx

Friday, September 25, 2009

Friday -

The mega doses of steroids may be the culprit that kept me up all night. I didn't go to sleep until after Avery got on the bus this morning about 8:15. Then, I slept til 12:30. So, I skipped breakfast. I'm going to log my meals to help with accountability.... here goes:

Lunch -

3oz Southwest style chicken breast
1 La Tortilla Factory low carb tortilla
1T shredded mexican cheese
1 big handful of romaine lettuce mix
1 c. red grapes
2 Diet Cherry Cokes ;)
2 steroid pills - lol

Dinner -

3oz grilled chicken breast
1 c. steamed broccoli
1 c. brown rice
3/4 c. black beans w/ onion, tomato, garlic, curry, salt, pepper (yum!!!)
1 t. olive oil

- few bites left on the plate

2 steroid pills :)

Snack -

2 graham crackers
w/ smears of Nutella

Didn't do very well with water. Will work on that tomorrow. Definitely didn't exercise. I feel like crap.

Welcome to my weightloss journey

How does one get to this place? I guess I should tell you a little about myself. There have been all kinds of journeys in my life. I have to say that this one has proven to be one of the hardest. There's no doubt in my mind. I am committed to not letting it beat me.

My life's personal journey thus far: I was born in Wheeling, WV 34 years ago. My parents "stayed married for the children" for 17 years. It was pure hell to grow up in that environment.
We lived next door to my beloved Grandmother, who saved me from many, many spankings. She passed away when I was 18 years old - 4 months after giving birth to my 1st daughter, Lauren.

Being married has had it share of bumps as well. I've been married twice. Once before graduating High School, which lasted nearly 5 years. We were divorced 8/18/97. I married my husband, David, on 8/29/97. Yes, 11 days later. We couldn't wait and the divorced had taken over a year. David and I have been married for 12 years. I love my husband so much. Even though he's not a "talker," he really is my rock.

Motherhood - Lauren was born in February of my Senior year. She's 16 now. Connor was soon to follow. He is 14. They were created in my 1st marriage. After Dave and I had been together about a year, we decided we would like to have a baby. That didn't go forth without significant struggles. Evan was born in November of '98. One more blessing rounded out our brood... Avery Morgan in August 2000. I have been a Mom as long as I can remember and for all of my adult life. Honestly, there are a few tweaks I would like to make, but I wouldn't have it any other way.

I've also been a Gestational Surrogate. Gestational means that the carrier has no biological connection to the baby(ies). I delivered Joseph in 12/02 and twin sisters, Berley and Barney in 12/04. Next to my own family, this process is so near and dear to my heart. I began working for the largest surrogacy agency in the world in March 2006, but parted ways with them, on my decision, July 2009.

This leads me now to the purpose of my blog. Mostly everyone I know is obese to some degree. We lost my cousin Jeremy in 12/07 due to complications from Gastric Bypass surgery and obesity. Even the struggle that I witnessed with him has not been enough to make me put down the doughnut. I love carbs - bread, potatoes, rice, and red meat. Ooooh, and the doughnuts. I never, ever feel full. Adding this appetite to the stress and anxiety added at work, then add 4 years worth of emotional eating and Effexor to that... well... I was doomed. I'm a bit bigger now than I was when I delivered the twins at 32 weeks. Today, this is going to stop. I spoke with my doctor yesterday about all of this. He wouldn't give me any appetite suppressants because of my heart beating too quickly... so, I'm kinda on my own. I did do a program called "The Wellness Bridge" with which I did have some success before conceiving the twins, so I am wanting to try it again. I have made contact with them. I also looked into joining the gym at the local college and I have a Bowflex Treadclimer, which has become the proverbial clothes tree.

Today, I start my new life. I know that it won't be easy and there will be times where I will want to give up. But, I am committed and determined. My dr challenged me to lose 10 pounds before I see him again on November 3rd. Please send me good thoughts.

For now,
Christina xx